So, overall as Kitten and I venture down this new, and not so new, road of our Dom/Sub relationship it has gone better than imagined. It honestly, has been amazing. We are more happy and open about things, we are surely enjoying our roles together. But, given our history, there is some parts that can …
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“Can I Come Into The Out Now?”
When Angel sent me this today, I didn’t even think Angel meant this in regards how we interact when she sent that meme. I honestly thought it was a Covid-19 Meme about things not being open. Once Angel has her mind set on something, she usually doesn’t relent on it until she feels it is …
“I’m Glad You’re Doing OK”
Angel texted me again today, to check on me. I know she is worried, I know she is fully aware of how all of this hurts for me still. I know she cares enough to check on me. I guess, I am doing ok. I told her I was in so many words. But, it …
Looking in the Mirror
If there is one thing having a lot of extra time causes, is reflection. I know I over think some things, and I do it alot. You can call it anxiety, call it whatever. But I tend to overthink when I stress or worry about certain things, not everything. Not physically moving faster and closer …
The Drunk Test?
Well, in the past, I haven’t done well with a few cocktails in me and talking to Angel. From the stupid decisions to try and take submission back, to just trying to talk her back into being my girlfirend, and well, it always ends with me trying to get her back and breaking down in …
Soften This Old Armor….
I still listen to 46 and 2 alot. I have used it like an anthem for changing myself, everyday I feel better and better. Even after yesterday, being laid off, I feel good and strong. It is strange after being in such a shitty place, self imposed, how I can feel the positive again. Angel …
Then, We Are Challenged..
I have made alot of strides about bettering myself over the last few months. Have I been perfect, no. But, I have been better and better and living my days to the best of my ability. 2 weeks ago, I was put under quarintine for Covid19 exposure. I had all the symptoms, tested negative and …
Matyrdom = Self Desctruction
So, by Definition being a martyr is to die rather then denounce your religion. So, the title of the article may seem redundent. But, I am speaking about the way we commonly use the phrase “being a martyr”. One who sacrifices them self, rather than dealing with something that is more beneficial to themself, or …
She Is An Angel
She always was, from the minute I met her. She always was showing me the good in life, the happiness. She showed me undeserved love when I felt unlovable. She showed time and again she would endure the hardest things for me. She was a friend and my girl. She was the Angel that saved …
My Kitten, No More
A lot has been happening over the past few weeks, I am under quarintine for the Covid-19 virus, work has been crazy as a result of the covid-19 virus and life has been a whirl wind. Kitten has been still taking care of me, everyday. Checking on how I feel, and was the one who …
Mind of Sir 