I used to ask myself this, when Kitten and I first broke up. Then I realized they are one and the same. My “Baby” is Kitten, and Kitten is my “Baby”. I miss them both, but I can’t have Kitten without having my Baby, the woman she is, the woman I adore. We have talked …
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Even Still, I Miss Her
God, I want to grab her throat. I want her to look me in the eyes, and show me the look she gets when she is both in love and submitting. I want her to look up at me and realize that she is most comfortable, submitted to me. We are apart, but we are …
Shoulda, Coulda
I reflect a lot. I find for me that in life, you can’t look past mistakes and not learn. I also feel that even when you think you have figured something out, it isn’t a bad idea to go back and just go over things. Not in a way that you beat yourself up, but …
I Know Better
I know I am not supposed to miss her still. I know that we gave it our best, even the last time, where we tried for this submission only relationship, where Kitten wasn’t my significant other and I wasn’t hers. I know the week or so we spent last time, was supposed to be just …
Deeper and Deeper
I haven’t had the chance to write the last week and a half. But, it isn’t for bad reasons. I have been busy with good things. Spending a lot of time with Kitten, virtually, and just enjoying my day to day. Kitten and I have made some good progress in our D/s relationship, and it …
Sub Homework, Building a Bond
My First go around as a Dom, I did alot of research. I also tried to use what I learned through research to try and better the bond between Kitten and I. When it came to homework, I was hit and miss. I was trying to do too much some days, and not enough on …
Know When Too Dom, And When Not Too
So, overall as Kitten and I venture down this new, and not so new, road of our Dom/Sub relationship it has gone better than imagined. It honestly, has been amazing. We are more happy and open about things, we are surely enjoying our roles together. But, given our history, there is some parts that can …
Kitten Makes Me Proud
The first few days of Kitten and I discussing, and moving back into a D/s relationship was not perfect. I knew there would be apprehension and fear on her part, I knew I would have stress on my part. I also knew, that she is an amazing submissive, that once she said she would try, …
I Am A Dom Again
Sort of, I got myself a Brat. My last Sub was a bit of a brat too, but this one is a little more of a brat, I think, and I really enjoy it. She is beautiful, and sexy and so far very obedient, even in her own bratty way. There is no relationship attachment. …
What If I Fail?
I have spoken numerous times about the fear of the unknown. Both as a Dom and not as a Dom. As a Dom, there are many avenues you “could” fail at. During a Session, collar on with Angel, I only really “failed” one time. I owned it. I felt terrible for a short time, but …