Someone commented in one of my other post and asked if Kitten asked too much from me, and if she was being unreasonable. My first answer was immediately “NO” and gave the opinion that I should have just told her and communicated when she asked a lot. I believe that is true, but, I never …
Tag Archives: Fixing myself
Blasting People in the Face (A metaphor)
I woke up yesterday and decided I needed to change some things back I let slide over the year. With all I need to do, I surely have let some parts of me go. The first thing, my attitude. I used to have a “no fucks given” attitude for everyone that didn’t deserve a fuck …
I Don’t Want More Space
So, the last few weeks with everything between Kitten and I, I haven’t been talking about much unrelated to us with her. To be frank and honest, I didn’t really care about too much else. I was just focusing on us, because I was still trying to save something. Now that we are back to …
Asking Too Much
I asked to much from the heart I already broke, and kitten told me today that we can just be friends, but she needs to let the anger go and that means stopping the argument over who I became the last year. ‘ The person I became, even last night I was referring to myself …
I Let Her Anguish
For the past year, and I didn’t listen until it was too late. Tonight, I reacted because she didn’t text me all day, and I got upset. Kitten had never just ignored me, and because I am still in total love with her and want to fix it all, I still react the same as …
When She is Sick
It is really hard not to be “Full Sir” or even “Kind of Sir” when Kitten is sick. Kitten has a sinus infection, nothing crazy. She told me it wasn’t so bad, so I know to add about 30% to how bad she says it is. Kitten has a high pain tolerance, and doesn’t whine …
Crafted Purgatory
I crafted my own purgatory, this place where I wait in an expiatory state. Waiting outside the gates where my heaven lies, staring inside and trying to find the key to the lock that was now there, andThe lock I forged with her pain. I can see inside, I can see her and I can …
Mind of Sir 