“Then that will make (insert problem here) better”. We have all told ourselves that when life throws a hardship upon us. Sometimes, the anwer is easy, sometimes it is hard. I think most people when it is an individual problem, they handle it like business. But, when that problem hurts someone else they love, they …
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It’s a Thing
It started pretty early with Angel and I. We weren’t talking long before I started to have this weird “thing”. You see, at the time, Angel was dealing with a lot of hard things. Without details, some of them would be sudden and immediate. But, the more we talked, the more I had this “thing” …
Missing Kitten
Now, I do talk to her everyday. I do get that luxury, But I do miss MY Kitten. I miss my submissive Kitten. I miss holding her throat and making her orgasm intensely. I miss seeing my marks on her, I miss seeing my collar on her. The more and more I feel better, the …
In Different Places
Kitten and I have spent a majaority of our time together in different place, physically. Now, we are in different places emtionally. I am feeling so much better about myself, and I have learned alot through talking to Kitten, reflection and therapy. I am starting to feel more and more like myself, and that is …
Fighting Yourself
I never really understood the term “fighting yourself” or “fighting myself” before December 2018. That was when my life started to take so many turns, and I was so convinced I could handle it all, and not break. I was so sure, because I felt I HAD to handle it, I felt like I had …
I Don’t Want More Space
So, the last few weeks with everything between Kitten and I, I haven’t been talking about much unrelated to us with her. To be frank and honest, I didn’t really care about too much else. I was just focusing on us, because I was still trying to save something. Now that we are back to …
The New Normal
I knew when I went to bed last night that today was going to be odd. I didn’t dread it, but I definitely was not looking forward to it. Kitten told me yesterday that we are just friends now, as I said yesterday. So, today begins the new normal, after 3 years of her as …
Asking Too Much
I asked to much from the heart I already broke, and kitten told me today that we can just be friends, but she needs to let the anger go and that means stopping the argument over who I became the last year. ‘ The person I became, even last night I was referring to myself …
I Let Her Anguish
For the past year, and I didn’t listen until it was too late. Tonight, I reacted because she didn’t text me all day, and I got upset. Kitten had never just ignored me, and because I am still in total love with her and want to fix it all, I still react the same as …
Crafted Purgatory
I crafted my own purgatory, this place where I wait in an expiatory state. Waiting outside the gates where my heaven lies, staring inside and trying to find the key to the lock that was now there, andThe lock I forged with her pain. I can see inside, I can see her and I can …
Mind of Sir 