It Is Still Right There

When I started writing this blog, as many may know, it was about my BDSM relationship with Angel. Since then, it has become a weird therapeutic rant page. The last 6 months have been some of the most stressful and emotional time that I have lived in my life.  But, through it all, that now …

You Ever Hear a Song?

That song that sometimes says exactly what you feel? I have been feeling better and better, even still. Angel and I have been talking more normal, which has been amazing. Even this week, when she is crazy busy and we aren’t talking alot, it is still more normal. She is going out of her way …

“Can I Come Into The Out Now?”

When Angel sent me this today, I didn’t even think Angel meant this in regards how we interact when she sent that meme. I honestly thought it was a Covid-19 Meme about things not being open. Once Angel has her mind set on something, she usually doesn’t relent on it until she feels it is …

And Then, She Was Gone…..

Hold dear to you whats most important. Don’t ever lose yourself, or it will cost you the most important person, it will cost you your love. Angel told me today that she needs to go for a while, maybe forever if we are being honest. I have to now accept that as a reality. I …

More About The Unknown

I was thinking alot about my post I wrote about the unknown. I was thinking about how scary the unknown truly is. About control and lack of control. It got me to think about the first time Angel and I kissed and made love. You see, Angel and I met online. We went so many …

“If I Can Just Do This….”

“Then that will make (insert problem here) better”. We have all told ourselves that when life throws a hardship upon us. Sometimes, the anwer is easy, sometimes it is hard. I think most people when it is an individual problem, they handle it like business. But, when that problem hurts someone else they love, they …