I asked to much from the heart I already broke, and kitten told me today that we can just be friends, but she needs to let the anger go and that means stopping the argument over who I became the last year. ‘ The person I became, even last night I was referring to myself …
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I Let Her Anguish
For the past year, and I didn’t listen until it was too late. Tonight, I reacted because she didn’t text me all day, and I got upset. Kitten had never just ignored me, and because I am still in total love with her and want to fix it all, I still react the same as …
Male Fragility
Every guy who is Type A and reading this, may hate me for writing it. But, I feel like the same guys need to read this and realize they aren’t alone. We are Type A, kick ass, punch throwin’, problem solvin’ sons of bitches, and we are fragile. The subject of male fragility is still …
The 5 Stages
Now, Over several posts I have explained a lot of what has happened between Kitten and I. I am also working on an article about losing your confidence as a man and “Dom” and how destructive it is. But, today after another long discussion with Kitten, I thought about the stages of grief and loss. …
She Doesn’t Know
She doesn’t know how I see her, sure I can tell her over and over again. I can tell her I marvel at her and how she is the most amazing woman ever, but she doesn’t know how much I mean it. I can tell her about her beauty, from her smile, to her amazing …
I Dream of Kitten
When Kitten and I first met I dreamt about her and us a lot. Some were deeply sexual, some were not. But it was so common, that if I went a few days without a dream of her or us it was odd. The dreams were less frequent over the past year. I certain had …
“I Love You and Miss You Too”
It’s funny how you take some things for granted, even when you don’t think you should and KNOW you shouldn’t. Being told “I miss you” was I guess on that list of things. Kitten always tells me she loves me. Up until last month, she regularly told me she missed me too. It is good …
Schism by Tool
Over the last few days, I have been listening to alot of music. Some that is happy, some that puts me into thought. Some to just flush the soul, and others to remind me of who I am. Tool has made the playlist many times. If you don’t know Tool, or maybe you know of …
It’s Good to See Her Smile
It had been a while, since I saw Kitten have a full real smile. I got some pictures tonight from her trip, and it was just nice to see her smiling. I know the last few weeks has been unbearable for many reasons, so to see it warmed my heart. I guess it is the …
Answering Questions
“You aren’t going to write anymore because I can’t submissive?” Kitten asked me this morning after reading my post where I said I had to decide what to do with this blog now. I will keep writing, as this has been cathartic for me. But what to write about? Do I write about being a …
Mind of Sir 