I always know when Angel and I go through a disagreement or I make a mistake, she pulls back that much further. This weekend must have cost me phone calls. I was still getting a phone call most days. Just to say hi and hear each others voice. She know, like with pictures, hearing her …
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Being A Better Friend
Two nights ago, I was having a good night. I had time alone, I had got a nice steak, made a few Dark Manhattans (Angel turned me onto them) and a cigar. I had been trying to “treat” myself a little more. Angel pointed out a while ago that I never do anything for myself, …
I Used Too….
I used to be able to make Angel happy. The last week, she has really been upset and depressed. I know we have talked, and I hope it has helped. But, I miss the days when I could put that smile on her face, that when everything else sucked, I could be her happy, her …
I Feel Her Pain, Still
It was a long weekend for Angel, emotionally. I knew she was emotionally off before the weekend came. I could tell by how limited she was in her texting and calls. I knew, just because I can still feel her when she is. Today, we talked about her emotions. How she is still angry at …
When A Post Hits Hard…
Truth bomb Sometimes you come across something that hits you like a Mack Truck. This hit me hard, this is Angel. I did take it for granted, but I know she is what I need.
She Hurts Too
Yesterday, Angel and I rehashed everything that happened leading up to the breakup. It is clear, she hasn’t forgiven me. I guess I can’t expect her too, a year of pain is alot to process. But, It got heated at times, she is still angry that I didn’t decide to change until I lost her, …
I Watched Her Change
I have watched Angel change so much in the last few months. It isn’t in a way that I don’t know her, it is more “her”. She has been fighting for herself, trying to regain that self reliance and gain back her independence she gave up when we were together. Like she said, she never …
I Think I Saw Her
Angel sent me a picture today, a few actually. It is always great when I get to see Angel, and it doesn’t happen a whole lot lately. She knows I love seeing her, she knows how amazingly sexy I find her. She knows it makes my days. But, inside the picture I thought I saw …
The Drunk Test?
Well, in the past, I haven’t done well with a few cocktails in me and talking to Angel. From the stupid decisions to try and take submission back, to just trying to talk her back into being my girlfirend, and well, it always ends with me trying to get her back and breaking down in …
Soften This Old Armor….
I still listen to 46 and 2 alot. I have used it like an anthem for changing myself, everyday I feel better and better. Even after yesterday, being laid off, I feel good and strong. It is strange after being in such a shitty place, self imposed, how I can feel the positive again. Angel …
Mind of Sir 