I woke up yesterday and decided I needed to change some things back I let slide over the year. With all I need to do, I surely have let some parts of me go. The first thing, my attitude. I used to have a "no fucks given" attitude for everyone that didn't deserve a fuck …
I Don’t Want More Space
So, the last few weeks with everything between Kitten and I, I haven't been talking about much unrelated to us with her. To be frank and honest, I didn't really care about too much else. I was just focusing on us, because I was still trying to save something. Now that we are back to …
The New Normal
I knew when I went to bed last night that today was going to be odd. I didn't dread it, but I definitely was not looking forward to it. Kitten told me yesterday that we are just friends now, as I said yesterday. So, today begins the new normal, after 3 years of her as …
Finger Eleven – One Thing
"Even though I know, I don't want to know" https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2PblWnkQsIA Music owned and produced by Finger Eleven. I do not own rights to this music Restless tonight Cause I wasted the light Between both these times I drew a really thin line Its nothing I planned And not that I can But you should be …
Asking Too Much
I asked to much from the heart I already broke, and kitten told me today that we can just be friends, but she needs to let the anger go and that means stopping the argument over who I became the last year. ' The person I became, even last night I was referring to myself …
I Let Her Anguish
For the past year, and I didn't listen until it was too late. Tonight, I reacted because she didn't text me all day, and I got upset. Kitten had never just ignored me, and because I am still in total love with her and want to fix it all, I still react the same as …
Cyclical Behavior
As I have taken a multi pronged approach to fixing myself and learning more about what I have done poorly over the last year, I came across an article about cyclical behavior. Now, I am not a therapist, and I don't even try to suggest how to live your live, this is just things I …
Male Fragility
Every guy who is Type A and reading this, may hate me for writing it. But, I feel like the same guys need to read this and realize they aren't alone. We are Type A, kick ass, punch throwin', problem solvin' sons of bitches, and we are fragile. The subject of male fragility is still …
The 5 Stages
Now, Over several posts I have explained a lot of what has happened between Kitten and I. I am also working on an article about losing your confidence as a man and "Dom" and how destructive it is. But, today after another long discussion with Kitten, I thought about the stages of grief and loss. …
When She is Sick
It is really hard not to be "Full Sir" or even "Kind of Sir" when Kitten is sick. Kitten has a sinus infection, nothing crazy. She told me it wasn't so bad, so I know to add about 30% to how bad she says it is. Kitten has a high pain tolerance, and doesn't whine …
Mind of Sir 