It had been a while, since I saw Kitten have a full real smile. I got some pictures tonight from her trip, and it was just nice to see her smiling. I know the last few weeks has been unbearable for many reasons, so to see it warmed my heart. I guess it is the …
Answering Questions
"You aren't going to write anymore because I can't submissive?" Kitten asked me this morning after reading my post where I said I had to decide what to do with this blog now. I will keep writing, as this has been cathartic for me. But what to write about? Do I write about being a …
Self Doubt – Punch it in it’s Stupid Face
If the train is coming, punch that Son of a Bitch in the face Self Doubt had never been an issue for me, this year it got the better of me. I am not 100% yet, but I will be. The fight has started, I deserve the life I have fought so hard for, and …
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Rise – Sixx:A.M.
It has been a week of self reflection, ups and downs, and acceptance. Kitten told me this week that, at least while we are living so far away, that she will not wear my collar again. This was a decision I saw coming, as much as I did not want to accept it. I respect …
Milestones in the Climb
Before you can finish a marathon or hike a mountain, you have to take the first step. That has been my mindset through the last few weeks, regarding earning trust back from Kitten. I knew this would be a long journey, and I am actually glad it is. It is making me appreciate so much …
The Strength of a Sub
"Listen to your sub and learn from my mistakes"
Thought of the Day
Pay attention!
Balance for Emotions and Logic
On top of everything else I have been feeling and going through trying to be a better sir for Kitten, sleep as been at an absolute premium. I just don't understand, I never had issues sleeping with stress or not. I was always the "switch in my head" guy, when I went horizontal, I went …
Not Normally a Morning Person, But…..
Today, I woke up to an "I Love You" text from Kitten. We have been saying it right along, through all of the hard we have gone through. We do love each other, I know she loves me and I absolutely love her. But, I haven't woke up to one of those in a while. …
Finding the Good
Today was a decent day. It started off rough, no sleep and some other emotional reminders of where Kitten and I are right now. It is surely hard, when I don't hear from her for a few hours at a time it is pretty lonely. It isn't like this when things are "normal", but now …
Mind of Sir 