I knew when I went to bed last night that today was going to be odd. I didn’t dread it, but I definitely was not looking forward to it. Kitten told me yesterday that we are just friends now, as I said yesterday. So, today begins the new normal, after 3 years of her as …
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I Let Her Anguish
For the past year, and I didn’t listen until it was too late. Tonight, I reacted because she didn’t text me all day, and I got upset. Kitten had never just ignored me, and because I am still in total love with her and want to fix it all, I still react the same as …
Cyclical Behavior
As I have taken a multi pronged approach to fixing myself and learning more about what I have done poorly over the last year, I came across an article about cyclical behavior. Now, I am not a therapist, and I don’t even try to suggest how to live your live, this is just things I …
Male Fragility
Every guy who is Type A and reading this, may hate me for writing it. But, I feel like the same guys need to read this and realize they aren’t alone. We are Type A, kick ass, punch throwin’, problem solvin’ sons of bitches, and we are fragile. The subject of male fragility is still …
When She is Sick
It is really hard not to be “Full Sir” or even “Kind of Sir” when Kitten is sick. Kitten has a sinus infection, nothing crazy. She told me it wasn’t so bad, so I know to add about 30% to how bad she says it is. Kitten has a high pain tolerance, and doesn’t whine …
The Drink of Water
Yesterday was one of those odd days we have in life, schedule wise. I had to go into work much earlier than usual, and while the morning was ok, it was just a weird schedule for me. I got in, and was texting with Kitten after she woke up. She wasn’t feeling well, her sinus …
Cumbersome – 7 Mary 3
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=NjNn4bbbgSw She calls me Goliath and I wear the David maskI guess the stones are coming too fast for her nowYou know I’d like to believe this nervousness will passAll the stones that are thrown are building up a wallI have become cumbersome to this worldI have become cumbersome to my girl I’d like to …
Crafted Purgatory
I crafted my own purgatory, this place where I wait in an expiatory state. Waiting outside the gates where my heaven lies, staring inside and trying to find the key to the lock that was now there, andThe lock I forged with her pain. I can see inside, I can see her and I can …
It’s Just Work
That has been my mantra over the last month. I should have adapted it a long, long time ago. I was always one of those people who my work was apart of me. It was part of my definition, it was a sense of pride in my life. It also, drained me in many ways. …
She Doesn’t Know
She doesn’t know how I see her, sure I can tell her over and over again. I can tell her I marvel at her and how she is the most amazing woman ever, but she doesn’t know how much I mean it. I can tell her about her beauty, from her smile, to her amazing …
Mind of Sir 