It is not even a word I like or associate to myself. I had always been good about controlling my reactions, even in the hardest of situations. I realized now that all of this guilt I let build up has caused me to get triggered, and it was only when Kitten was upset with me. …
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The New Normal
I knew when I went to bed last night that today was going to be odd. I didn’t dread it, but I definitely was not looking forward to it. Kitten told me yesterday that we are just friends now, as I said yesterday. So, today begins the new normal, after 3 years of her as …
Male Fragility
Every guy who is Type A and reading this, may hate me for writing it. But, I feel like the same guys need to read this and realize they aren’t alone. We are Type A, kick ass, punch throwin’, problem solvin’ sons of bitches, and we are fragile. The subject of male fragility is still …
The 5 Stages
Now, Over several posts I have explained a lot of what has happened between Kitten and I. I am also working on an article about losing your confidence as a man and “Dom” and how destructive it is. But, today after another long discussion with Kitten, I thought about the stages of grief and loss. …
The Drink of Water
Yesterday was one of those odd days we have in life, schedule wise. I had to go into work much earlier than usual, and while the morning was ok, it was just a weird schedule for me. I got in, and was texting with Kitten after she woke up. She wasn’t feeling well, her sinus …
Answering Questions
“You aren’t going to write anymore because I can’t submissive?” Kitten asked me this morning after reading my post where I said I had to decide what to do with this blog now. I will keep writing, as this has been cathartic for me. But what to write about? Do I write about being a …
Self Doubt – Punch it in it’s Stupid Face
If the train is coming, punch that Son of a Bitch in the face Self Doubt had never been an issue for me, this year it got the better of me. I am not 100% yet, but I will be. The fight has started, I deserve the life I have fought so hard for, and …
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Rise – Sixx:A.M.
It has been a week of self reflection, ups and downs, and acceptance. Kitten told me this week that, at least while we are living so far away, that she will not wear my collar again. This was a decision I saw coming, as much as I did not want to accept it. I respect …
The Strength of a Sub
“Listen to your sub and learn from my mistakes”
Thought of the Day
Pay attention!
Mind of Sir 